mila | leaving 2010 with a mini kaya update

looking back now, this year went by so fast.  i feel like i barely looked up. i had my highest highs and dropped to my lowest lows.  this mommyhood thing really kicked my ass but i feel like i've also kicked back.  today i can say that i'm in control and it feels good.  it didn't always feel that way.  i'm going to try my best to hang on to this feeling.  maybe even stay on top of the situation but change is a constant in this mommy role so i dunno.  i do know that i've got people to turn to who love us, support us and are reliable.  thank god for them.

it wasn't the best year in business for me.  i'm sure there's an entire nation and world that would agree with me on that.  it's ok though.  everything happens for a reason.  in a way... i'm glad.  it allowed me to focus on our new family and to find my bearings again.  tomorrow is a new beginning and i've got big plans for the year.  the first quarter is re-vamp time.  i can't wait!

p.s.  a kaya mini update

• three days ago she started crawling.  tentative, subconscious but deliberate.  she's as conservative with her movement as she is with her giggles.
• she's quicker to smile now.  maybe not with strangers but definitely around family
• she actually cares when i leave her with strangers now.  not too much, but enough to make me feel wanted.  ... i know... it's all about me.
• she likes to pull herself up to a standing position.  she tries anyway
• her first tooth is showing up!  bottom left.  woohoo!

just throwing these in here coz it reflects how i feel right now.  sigh ;)

happy new year everyone and be safe!!!!