it's hard for me to believe that just a year and a half ago i was living a burnt out life in the corporate world dragging my feet through the motions and wishing for control. i got a surge of energy every now and then, a spike of excitement ... because despite it all, i really did enjoy what i did for a living. but living on someone else's schedule, pushing everyone else's envelopes and having my hands tied by corporate red tape was bound to wear thin. i am so grateful for all the support and encouragement from everyone around me -- especially curtis for letting me live out this dream. but it's not all sugar and bon bons.
i read an article this morning that made me snicker. it isn't uncommon that people think the life of a photographer must be fairly chill (that's what this article was about). it's actually a whole lot more work than i ever did in corporate america. i have to be everything to my business. i am the CEO that makes hard decisions like firing myself from designing my own website coz i don't know anything about good web design. i am the marketing director that convinced the rest of the board (i, me, myself and curtis) that we had to bite the bullet this year and pay for advertising. i am the accountant, the strategist, the photographer, the editor, the slave chick, i am everything and everyone 7 days a week and 15 hours a day. it's non-stop. sometimes i get tired and sometimes the baby does cardio kick boxing in my belly to remind me that i need to eat, pee or just take a break. but i love it! i love it so much that i had to instill some discipline.
most people get 2 days off a week and a full time job usually means an 8 hour work day with appropriate breaks. this leaves time for life, family, personal growth and all the important things. i try to make sure that i don't lose that in the little world i've created for myself. it's so easy to spend all my time and energy on my craft because i love it so much.
curtis has weekends off and i usually don't... but when i do i make sure that the time is reserved for family and friends. i try to be done with all my work by 6.30 pm at the latest during the week so i can spend time with curtis at the end of the day. i start out each day with a list of items to do in some kind of priority order knowing full well that staying up till midnight does not make for a shorter list tomorrow. so what gets done will get done and the rest will have to get addressed later. and just because my work station is a few steps away from my bedroom does not mean i rush off to work every morning. i take the time to cuddle and hug and make coffee and chat. i left the burnt out world of corporate america not so i can get burnt out in my own world but so i could live my life first and pursue a passion second.
this is what i tell myself as i finally edit some photos from a shoot i did a few weeks ago with a couple of friends. i could barely keep my fingers off of them .. i was itching to go through them and share the joy with everyone. but now you know how i managed to sit on these for so long.
The models: Chelsea Ravitch, Erika Cook, Tiffany Amber , Whitney, and Bao Sun
The venue: an awesome studio owned by lyle okihara http://www.lylephotography.com -- you should contact him if you are in need of a professional and well equipped studio.
special thanks to kevin hall for inviting me and lorrie to the shoot.
michelle can be reached at 949.734.0604 or by email michelle@milaPhotography.com | www.milaPhotography.com